Why I don’t JERK OFF to PORN

This post is not for sexually conservative folks. It is for those who discuss things that happen behind the curtains and under the sheets. If you can’t bear it, either you close it now or don’t whine the fuck out of your gut later on.

Now that you are here, let me tell you this thing.

This is specifically targeted for dick owners, if you don’t have one, don’t worry. You too will benefit from this but in a different way. I don’t hope you do, I expect you don’t.

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Men watch porn. Everybody knows it, no hiding from it. I saw a man sitting beside me in metro hiding files in a secret folder in his phone. All files had in their name – xvideos. Yeah. It really did happen. It’s no wonder we talk about lack of manliness in this age of porn addiction. The worst thing you can ever do other than emasculating yourself while watching porn is actually nothing. Watching a woman being screwed by guy(s) on screen is no way better than giving a real woman a real orgasm.

From Jan 15 to Apr 15 I gave up porn and masturbation.

The Curious Case Of Porn And Masturbation

It was the no PMO – Porn and Masturbatory Orgasm mission that I was a part of for 3 months. Since then until 6 weeks ago, I was on and off jerking off to my fantasies of women who may or may not know me. Yeah, it feels good to fantasize about having sex with women I can’t really make love to in reality. I gave up porn a few months ago and have neither reverted to watching it nor plan to do that anytime in the coming future. Not that porn is bad, but it not something worthy enough for me spend my time on. Who says ice cream is bad? But you can’t have it four times a day for the rest of your life. When I make healthy choices in my life in other areas, why not for my psycho-sexuality? Unaware folks read work by Sigmund Freud to know more about that big ass term that I used in the last line.

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Porn activates the same areas in your brain that get triggered byaddictive chemicals.

Your Brain On Porn

The rush of dopamine makes you watch more and more of porn and then rub one out in closet or maybe into a sock. I’m not against masturbation, it is great. The only thing that I am pointing out is that when your actions get compulsive and secretive, it is time to either change them or totally eliminate them. Giving up beating the bishop was one of my ways to get over my mental blocks and hurdles.

I gave up jerking off 6 weeks ago. I have seen some changes in myself but the effect of years of accumulated shit in my head can’t be undone in a few weeks. It will take some time and I am willing to take this journey fullassedly.

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I miss my favourite MILF, Asian, Mature, Blowjob and Romantic porn, but the cost to benefit ratio this time is better than just rubbing one out at the sight of Heather Berlin’s pussy. Or Sasha Grey’s butt. These things really did stick to my psyche and I had a really hard time getting over my repressed and compartmentalized emotions. For the past 7 months I’m working on my unconscious programming and psychological healing and healing my sexuality is an integral part of it.

The only benefit of watching porn for me was that it helped me rub one out. And then another. And another. That’s it. Nothing more. You learn piano by playing it, not by watching others play it on screen. Watching porn is really different from sex and by really different I mean really fucking different. I learnt about sex not from porn, but from having sex itself. Besides, watching porn built up unrealistic expectations in my head which I later had to unpack and clean up.

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It was high time I gave up porn and jerking off. I will make a sequel blogpost to my 3 month no PMO post 6 weeks later. I will then be at my 3 month no jerk off mark. A video will also come out regarding that. Till then, wait and delete that “stuff” in the “important” folder you have in your device.

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